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I Will Do It Afraid

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  • Feb 7, 2023
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Katie Hawkins-Gaar
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It has now been six years since my husband Jamie died. And while each February 4th has been different, one thing remains the same: My mind and body automatically recall the timeline... Show More

It has now been six years since my husband Jamie died. And while each February 4th has been different, one thing remains the same: My mind and body automatically recall the timeline of that fateful morning.

Depending on when I wake up, I think of what had already passed—the kiss goodbye, the coffee I drank while waiting along the race course, the pleasant conversation with friends—and what was still to come.

February 4th fell on a Saturday this year, the same day of the week that Jamie died. I got out of bed not long after 8:00, groggy but grateful to get a little extra sleep on a hard day. I shuffled into the living room, where my two-year-old was eating breakfast and watching Peppa Pig.

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Polina Marinova Pompliano @polina_marinova · Feb 7, 2023
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“Those people you admire are struggling just the same as you are … And they, too, will experience horrible moments when everything comes crashing down.” Beautiful, heart-shattering words by @katiehawk A must-read.
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